Unplanned plan =)

"Commit your work to the Lord and your plans will be established." ~Proverbs 16:3

New year resolutions are so not fun. I mean, first of all, I never can think of good ones. As in, I usually know that I completely messed everything up multiple times the year before, but I normally can't pinpoint one thing to fix it. So, this year New Years passed and I didn't give it a second thought, mainly because I was busy... Then, on the sixteenth, I happened to read this verse and I thought "Ugh... I probably should ponder this. What a bother..." 

Not really... I was actually more excited about it. Most of the time, I like having to think ;). 

Usually when I start planning or dreaming or looking forward to the future, I think BIG. So  once I finally bring all my scattered thoughts to my parents/sister/best friend, it sounds completely crazy and unrealistic. Which is quite unfortunate because they really are great plans! Okay... back to my previous thoughts about the... thoughts. 

One of the first things I asked myself was this: Where do I want to head this year? And then of course my mind goes in about eight different directions. Do I mean spiritually? Emotionally? Behaviorally? Mentally? Physically? What about plans for the future? Who do I want to be then? and... etc. So I started with the easiest one, obviously: plans for the future. Gotta love 'em. 

This time, things didn't happen the way they usually happen. Usually the way I "plan" is I'll sit down and write down what I want to do and then think through pros, cons, improbabilities, and so forth. This time, however, I sat down and... Nothing. My mind was completely blank. 

So, I prayed. "God, um, I've got nothing. I have no idea what you want me to do. I don't know where you want me to go, how I'm supposed to do whatever it is... I am so lost. Can you plan it for me?"

This was probably the one of the weirdest things that has ever happened to me... I sat there and gradually things came to my mind, and they just kinda flowed. I don't know how else to explain it. And, it kept coming. 

In about fifteen minutes, I looked down and realized that I (well, not me... God) had filled a whole page with a detailed summary of how I was going to spend 2014. And, it wasn't a lot of big stuff, like everywhere I was going to go and exactly how things were going to happen. It was more of small things I could do on my own to further my own studying of God's word, encouraging others, and some small things to help me get started on possibly becoming a recording artist. <--That is something I've disregarded for a while. I figured that would be one of the really crazy unrealistic ideas that everyone would scoff at.  When I read it, I think my reaction to myself looked something like this:

To be honest, its always hard for me to relinquish my control over...anything. But, God has been showing me this whole past year that He is sovereign and in control. He is God and I am not.  This, I trust, will be another true test of my faith in God to take care of all the little details. So, God has shown me what I am to do and where I am to work. What about you?