Unplanned plan =)

"Commit your work to the Lord and your plans will be established." ~Proverbs 16:3

New year resolutions are so not fun. I mean, first of all, I never can think of good ones. As in, I usually know that I completely messed everything up multiple times the year before, but I normally can't pinpoint one thing to fix it. So, this year New Years passed and I didn't give it a second thought, mainly because I was busy... Then, on the sixteenth, I happened to read this verse and I thought "Ugh... I probably should ponder this. What a bother..." 

Not really... I was actually more excited about it. Most of the time, I like having to think ;). 

Usually when I start planning or dreaming or looking forward to the future, I think BIG. So  once I finally bring all my scattered thoughts to my parents/sister/best friend, it sounds completely crazy and unrealistic. Which is quite unfortunate because they really are great plans! Okay... back to my previous thoughts about the... thoughts. 

One of the first things I asked myself was this: Where do I want to head this year? And then of course my mind goes in about eight different directions. Do I mean spiritually? Emotionally? Behaviorally? Mentally? Physically? What about plans for the future? Who do I want to be then? and... etc. So I started with the easiest one, obviously: plans for the future. Gotta love 'em. 

This time, things didn't happen the way they usually happen. Usually the way I "plan" is I'll sit down and write down what I want to do and then think through pros, cons, improbabilities, and so forth. This time, however, I sat down and... Nothing. My mind was completely blank. 

So, I prayed. "God, um, I've got nothing. I have no idea what you want me to do. I don't know where you want me to go, how I'm supposed to do whatever it is... I am so lost. Can you plan it for me?"

This was probably the one of the weirdest things that has ever happened to me... I sat there and gradually things came to my mind, and they just kinda flowed. I don't know how else to explain it. And, it kept coming. 

In about fifteen minutes, I looked down and realized that I (well, not me... God) had filled a whole page with a detailed summary of how I was going to spend 2014. And, it wasn't a lot of big stuff, like everywhere I was going to go and exactly how things were going to happen. It was more of small things I could do on my own to further my own studying of God's word, encouraging others, and some small things to help me get started on possibly becoming a recording artist. <--That is something I've disregarded for a while. I figured that would be one of the really crazy unrealistic ideas that everyone would scoff at.  When I read it, I think my reaction to myself looked something like this:

To be honest, its always hard for me to relinquish my control over...anything. But, God has been showing me this whole past year that He is sovereign and in control. He is God and I am not.  This, I trust, will be another true test of my faith in God to take care of all the little details. So, God has shown me what I am to do and where I am to work. What about you? 

Amateur

Hi. 

So, I am pretty new at this… As in, I’ve actually never done any writing before, of any kind. So, bear with me ;).

My name is Rebekah, and the only things that sets me apart from any other person is my salvation in Jesus Christ. My purpose in writing this blog is to bring a smile to your face, some peace to your troubled spirit, some joy to your heart, and probably some grimaces to your face if you read my writing… ;) I’d also like to change the world eventually, but I think I should get started on a smaller scale. To give you a better picture about who I am (or can be at times), here are some random facts about me:

1~ I kind of like being cold… Because then, you can get warm ;).
2~ I enjoy smiling quietly
3~ I don’t know whether I’m an extrovert or introvert… I might just be an ambivert…
4~ I like movies, but only certain ones. I am a very picky movie person. Some movies give me a weird feeling in my stomach… Even good ones sometimes. It’s strange.
5~ White store bread makes me sick.
6~ When I was younger my hair used to be a unique reddish brownish blondish color.
7~ My favorite smells in the world are: pine sap on your sweatshirt, Daddy on Sunday mornings, tomato vines in freshly-tilled moist dirt, oranges, mint plants, wood smoke, autumn, kerosene heaters, and Mom when she’s been baking.
8~ My Language of Love is “Encouraging Words”.
9~ I love singing. Even though my voice isn’t that good, when I sing, I feel like I have this power to do something big. Like, change the world. Yes, I know. That’s weird.
10~ I have an innate fear of creepy, crawly, twitchy things. Bugs, beetles, snakes, worms, that sort of thing. It’s even worse when their slimy…
11~ I am horrible at using concordances. Which is awful when I’m trying to prepare a bible study…
12~ My favorite soundtracks are LOTR and Narnia and How to train your Dragon. Especially Narnia. Especially LOTR. And especially How to train your dragon…
13~ I get scared of the dark sometimes.
14~ My two biggest sin problems are selfishness and pride. Which basically covers all of them ;).
15~ I HAVE been to Boston in the fall.
16~ I think stars are the most beautiful part of creation. The oceans are a close second.
17~ My favorite feeling is when I’m lying in bed and I’m enveloped in thick, soft quilts and only my nose is exposed to the crisp morning air. Pure delightfulness.
18~ I don’t know what I want to be when I grow up… Yet.
19~ My favorite colors are peach, deep blue, and a softer shade of red.
20~ I like plaid scarves… A lot :)

And this last thing that I hope you know about me is this: I am a daughter and servant of the High King over all kings, and my life goal is to be able to say while I’m dying, “I have wholly served the Lord. And I love him with everything I am.”

As you see, I’m not really anything different from many other young, struggling Christian girls out there. I may even be a bit less cool, more clumsy, less fabulous than most. But, thats okay because, you see, I have found a true comfort and security in my Savior, Jesus Christ. The Father is my Father. Jesus is my Best Friend. The Spirit is my Guide. And through me, maybe He’ll change the world. That would be awesome.

1 Corinthians 1:1-2 says this: "And I, when I came to you, brothers, I did not come proclaiming to you the testimony of God with lofty speech or wisdom. ² For I decided to know nothing among you except Jesus Christ and him crucified.”I want this saying to be true in my life. I want to be able to say in all sincerity and honesty: “I have decided to know nothing among you except for Jesus Christ and him crucified!” My prideful self often wants to take the credit for whatever things God has done in my life, but I think I’m slowly learning… 

Through reading this, I hope you are encouraged. Maybe you’ll think, “Oh! Thank goodness I am not the only silly person on this planet!” If so, rest assured. There are a ton of us ;). Anyway, enjoy! 

I feel like I should say something like, “I hope you enjoyed your visit, come back soon. There is always room for you here, at… Desert Streams.”  ~Credit (Lamplighter Theatre)

{Rebekah}