where feet may fail

Many people have labeled me a dreamer. And that is sorta true. At least, half of me is a huge dreamer and the other half... Well, its complicated... ;) Generally, I tend to be a person who thinks they can accomplish anything... until someone or something comes along that says,

 "Yeah... No. Sorry, but you're just not good enough."

 In the times of limited faith that ensue, I become more prideful than anything else. Thinking only of myself and my abilities, I blind myself to the greatness of God and His ability to work through me. And, unfortunately, these times have sometimes almost controlled my life. 

When I'm thinking like this, I get incredibly narrow-minded and self-willed. It's really quite annoying. And, I hope I'm not the only one to suffer from "too-big-of-an-opinion-of-oneself." Maybe you are like me and you're wondering where this chronic disease comes from. Well, to be honest, I think the name kinda speaks for itself. :P

A friend of mine posted a quote from C.S. Lewis a few weeks ago and it blew me away.

"Humility is not thinking less of yourself, but thinking of yourself less." - C.S. Lewis

Its so simple, right? And yet it is so annoyingly difficult. But anything worth having is also worth struggling for. 

I say all this to admit... I struggle. Yes, I know. Strange, isn't it? I'm finding out that each of us struggle with things and no one person is exempt from that, but also each person's struggle is a little unique. My struggle, for example, is probably a lot different than your struggle. It may be similar though, and that' s why I'm writing this. 

However hard my struggle (or your struggle) is, it is not what we should be focusing on! So many times, I'll sit on my bed with my latest grievance fresh on my mind and have a little pity party to myself... <---This doesn't help in the least. What helps is when I go to the Lord in prayer and search His Word for strength and comfort. And when I go to Him, I find out that He doesn't want me to just sit on the bed of my life waiting for something to happen.

I am always trying to figure out a way that "I" can better myself, or "I" can get rid of my sin, or "I" can get more people saved. And, I'm going to let you in on a little secret... my plans never work. But His plans? They always work! And I know He has plans for me:

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope." {Jeremiah 29:11}

My job isn't to be the most brilliant, the most perfect person, or the best evangelist. If it was, I'd never do anything but sink in my own incompetence. Thankfully, my job is just to commit my "plans" to the Lord.

"Commit your plans to the Lord, and your work will be established." {Proverbs 16:3}

He could call me to walk through storms or drift on peaceful seas, but whether I know what's going on or not, I do know it will be for my good {Romans 8:28}.

This picture reminds me of a song:

"You call me out upon the waters, the great unknown, where feet may fail. And there I find you in the mystery. In oceans deep, my faith will stand. And I will call upon your name and keep my eyes above the waves. When oceans rise, my soul will rest in your embrace. For I am Yours, and You are mine... Spirit, lead me where my faith is without borders. Let me walk upon the waters wherever You would call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander, that my faith would be made stronger in the presence of my Savior." {"Oceans" by Hillsong United}